Hello Cavan,
I was thinking about you recently. You haven’t been getting a lot of playing time. Just 15 appearances out of 25 games, as of April 27. So sorry to bring it up.
Looked over your stats thus far. You’re likely your own worst critic; so, no need to add more salt to the wound. But that three-run bomb you hit against the White Sox a few days ago reminded EVERYONE of what you are capable of. You needed that. We all needed that.
I wonder what’s going through your mind when you sit in the dugout. You’re likely just focusing on the match, going through scenarios and staying loose.
But maybe there are demons causing trouble in your mind.
Those fucking demons, Cavan. Relentless and dominant. I have my own, but this isn’t about me. It’s about the poison yours could be feeding you.
The pressure to succeed might weigh heavily: Son of a Hall of Famer, teammates with famous baseball fathers living up to their potential, you’re strong showing in ’19 and ’20.
Whether you’re feeling it or not, you’re dealing with it. You’re getting out of bed, showing up and working. You do it all over again the next day, even when you’re not in the lineup and spend an entire game on the bench. This kind of stress would easily break a civilian.
Then there’s social media.
Insiders, outsiders, passionate and compassionate; all with opinions. Some are fair and constructive, while others don’t care how harsh their critiques are.
It’s a lethal tag team – mental demons and the keyboard columnists. Powerful to knock down giants. You certainly encounter it more than I do.
You already know this, Cavan, but I still want to express it:
You’re stronger than those demons, Cavan. They’re harmless, especially when you tell them to fuck off.
And the best way to say “fuck off” is through character.
Never stop showing up. Never stop working. Never stop grinding.
Even if they send you to Buffalo, trade you to Oakland or consider you the 26th player, never stop. Everyone has an important role, even the supporting cast members.
This might help, Cavan: Travis Snider was on a Toronto-themed podcast and talked about all the struggles he went through. If he could handle all those demons and last as long as he did, so can you.
Hang in there, Cavan. Your stats don’t define who you are.
Obviously, you don’t need me telling you that.
ER